Thursday, August 5, 2010

Believing in Miracles


James has been having such a difficult time. Four days ago, he could not eat or drink anything (he is on an iv) and from there it all spiralled. He did not sleep for two straight days, was really aggravated. On day two, James was confused and not really comprehending us. This had to be the worse, especially him not being able to recognize the kids. By night, he was hardly able to keep his eyes open but no matter what they gave him, he was unable to sleep. Day three...no better. A lot of hallucinations of imaginary animals and floating objects...still no food or fluid intake. I don't know what we are supposed to think or do except keep faith and believe. God is good.
Today is day four and I came in with a new approach. James was semi-alert and the first thing on the agenda was to get him to drink water, juice or anything. Once his food tray came, task #2 was to get him to drink down a thick strawberry shake in a carton ordered for calories and lack of intake. Next came the jook...not as successful but something is better than nothing. All I can do is try.
I really don't believe anyone should have to go through this.
I am so burnt our, sleeping only a couple hours a night, spending 14 - 16hour s a day at James bed side and trying to stay busy doing work.
Everyone's words of encouragement and prayers have been keeping us strong, we are so blessed with so many great friends.
Pat and Shuko flew back from Hawaii early this morning...poor Shuko got to Hawaii for less than 12 hours prior and flew back out again. Lehua, Kupi and Nach come everyday and are definitely helping to hold us up...especially at times like this. James just got picked up to go to tests.

Monday, August 2, 2010

A New Week


A new week has begun and we set our hopes for a miracle. James will be continue radiation to his brain and await the results. James is very tired and still having a difficult time to even get out of the bed. His appetite is not too good and he describes it all as "Blah". At a time like this, I wish there was a guidebook or manual. I really don't know what to expect or how to help excect be by his side. It hurts to see James unable to laugh...laughter is James 99% of the time. God, I ask you to hold James tight and give him strength.